Z60: 2 months of daily meditation practice

February 27 - april 24. 
Zoom calls every Tuesday
6:00 - 7:00 pm (MT) 



Week 3: 3/13 - 3/20 

Overview of this week's call:

Almost everyone in the group has had some emotions arise -- this is addressed in great detail in the SECOND half of the Zoom call (for Jamie, Jason, Nell Eke, and the phone-died Joshua). Starts at 31.oo

You must develop a strong and healthy ego to function in this world. Liberation comes when we see through the delusion of an ego as a permanent, separate self.

Jun Po’s 2 realizations: 


First one was in the monastery. There, he realized that the ego was a fully conditioned process, not a self. Biology, culture, psychology all influence the illusion of free will. There is no permanent self -- permanence of the self is the greatest illusion and the cause most human suffering. This is the core of Zen. 

How this relates to our practice is explained in the video: when we deconstruct the ego through meditation, we can re-inform it and reconstruct it includes the realization of its essential empty nature. Because our ego is a wholly-conditioned process and not a separate self, it can and must be reconditioned to become liberated. 

Spiritual bypassing is, truthfully, something we want to learn how to do! As long as we do it in the way I describe in the video.

Stimuli => trigger point => emotion => conditioned reaction => old stories lived again in relationships, life, etc.  
changes to: 
Stimuli => trigger point => emotion => drop into stillness => no action => no old stories impacting relationship, life, etc. 

If everyone did this and this alone, the world would be a much better place! We should all try this on our cushions. But we can't just stop here. We want to FEEL what happens on the cushion, and feel it COMPLETELY, but without getting sucked out of Awareness and into our shit story. 


Junpo's second realization happened after 4 or 5 hours of meditation. There, he realized that while it was true the ego was a wholly conditioned process, it was also true that we had choice points. We could choose where before there were either habitual reactions, or places to "go still" and in essence wait for the trigger to pass. 

With practice, and with Awareness, we can see the trigger arise. In traditional Zen, we simply remain unreactive until it passes or let it push us into Awakening (the "bypass"). With Mondo (and Integral) Zen, we look into the trigger itself. 

Stimuli => trigger point => emotion => drop into stillness =>look for a deeper truth => choose compassionate reaction    

Now, we can do three things.

1. See our triggers arise (understanding the causes of the trigger itself is the work of attachment and trauma therapies)   
2. Feel the truth under the feeling (anger = sadness and care. Shame = internalized anger at others that points inward towards ourselves. Anxiety = excitement and opportunity, etc.)
3. Choose the appropriate response. My example with Patrick was that if I was angry at him, I would say, using my new insight, "I feel a great deal of sadness and a lot of care about this, and I'm really angry with you." The care and the sadness lead my expression, because they arise before my anger. They cause my anger, therefore they're truer (and more vulnerable).  



WEEK 2: 3/6 - 3/12

Story of Junpo and the "Mu" koan, where Eido Roshi clenched his fist, and then blew on it. 

Question for you to sit with: Is there such a thing as pure listening?

Ego = world of opposites: light and Dark, Love and Fear, Happy and Sad, Content or Ill-Content, Single or Partnered...

What do we do with our egos? 
What do we do with busy thoughts? 
What do we do with hard emotions? 
What do we do with "seeking" mind? 

Getting rid of the ego = psychosis. We may come to a place in our practice where we get in touch with a Silence That Has Never Spoken, and yet it is the ego's job to speak!

An ego does three things: "I want more. I want less. I don't care." This will never change, nor should it. Let the ego do its job. 

We let our egos be, well, egoic. "Me me me me me me you me me me me me me..." 

But as we quiet our minds, we might accidentally discover our hearts. The discipline we develop, and the mindfulness, allow us to identify more and more with Awareness, instead of just Attention (remember this from week 1). And Awareness informs the ego. It can transform it, too, to a point. But it doesn't change it. Awareness gives the ego more space to have reactions (instead of being the reaction) and to see itself. We then use Awareness to see emotions and thoughts as information, and as stories, not destinies. (Junpo used to say if you don't like your life story, fire the scriptwriter.) 

We'll get more into this next week. 


The ego continually references itself – me, me, me, me, you, me, me, me -- with an ongoing stream of thoughts, feeling and emotions. When we stop this self-referencing, as we are training ourselves to do, we might “die upon our cushion” and discover the truth of Emptiness (Shunyata).

Can we be reborn without dying first? If we are truly WILLING to allow for this possibility, that our deep mind is purely aware, never turns away, never reacts, and was before us and will be after us -- and if we admit it's possible that this Awareness never reacts, and that our strongest emotions are really just information, then we have taken a huge step towards liberation.  

"Enlightenment" is simply awakening to the pure consciousness within us that is deeper than our thoughts, emotions or feelings. It's not a state, not an experience, not a belief, not a feeling, not blissful or still or anything whatsoever. 

More on that to come!  


WEEK 1: 2/27 - 3/5

Summary of Discussion Points: 


  1. Set a timer. I recommend the app Insight Timer.
  2. Put phone on AIRPLANE mode.
  3. Find quiet space.


  1. Knees lower than hips
  2. Straight back
  3. Lift from crown of head
  4. Support knees with small supports if not on the ground (rolled up socks, pillows)
  5. Should be comfortable
  6. Eyes open, ears open, heart open. We face what arises around us through our 5 senses, and the “senses” of our thinking and our feeling.


  1. Lift chest, open heart
  2. Open the spine from sacrum to the root of the skull
  3. Tongue behind eye teeth
  4. Breath. Notice the breath falling into the belly. Imagine a few breaths coming down into the sacrum, all the way at the root of the belly.
  5. Notice body, emotions, mind:  
    1. What is the state of the gross body? (includes energy levels)
    2. What is the state of the emotional body?
    3. What is the state of the mental body?
  6. Settle into your sit. Notice what happens to the three bodies (gross, subtle, mental) when stressors arise (and itch, a knee that starts to ache, a numb foot, a running nose).
  7. Do not move.


  1. Turn timer over so you can't see it. 
  2. Do not move. Not to scratch an itch, not to adjust, barring extreme discomfort.
  3. If you MUST move, do so quickly and efficiently, and resume your posture as quickly. Do not turn away from the discomfort! Do not wallow in it. Face it and let it go. 


  • Attention and Awareness
  • Emptiness and Fullness
  • Bringing mind back to breath, back to senses
  • The mind will oscillate between attention to senses, attention to thoughts, “becoming” thoughts, awareness of a lack of awareness, and through those cycles. The only goal is to celebrate when one touches into Awareness and notices that it had faded into the background.