We were told we could be anything we want to be. To do what we love, and the money would follow. To follow our bliss.

So what happened? 

Only Everything was the name of my successful Kickstarter Campaign and the name of my newest book. It will be available for purchase by the summer of 2018. 

Logan Downing set out on the artist’s path in New York in 1995, in a city that was dirty and daring. We follow him through the streets of New York as an idealistic young man writing his first novel. Logan believes he can have it all — happiness, wealth, success — and that he only needs to work hard and have a little luck. And he succeeds wildly, getting his first novel published with Random House all while falling in love with his college sweetheart. We get to know his older brother Franklin and his brother’s best friend Alejandro, who is gay, both of them fine artists working towards their own dreams.

Yet we encounter Logan in 2017, now in his early 40’s, living on the Front Range of Colorado in a different and dying relationship, working a job he hates, and battling alcoholism, insomnia, and a decade-long creative rut. He is writing about that magical time in New York while revealing what’s happened to him — and Franklin and Alejandro — in the 20-odd years since.

Logan is struggling how to metabolize an unspeakable tragedy that occurred at the same time of his greatest personal triumph. The harder he works to avoid his past the more it leaches into his present, impacting every part of his life. 

‘Only Everything’ is about art and ambition, intimacy and love, privilege and access, and the ruthlessness with which life can crush even the most beautiful of dreams.